life can be so complicated...
Avenue Q - My Girlfriend (Who Lives In Canada) -- Confucius
-- Edwin Hubbel Chapin
So, the night of Thursday 6th I was out with my friend Chloe, and met her boyfriend, and his best friend, Dan. (This was in fact written about in a previous blog entry, which I accidentally deleted down to my own stupidity.) Dan tried to chat me up, and when I rejected him, reacted violently and rudely. Among calling me a snob and telling me I was up my own arse (which amused me more than anything else, really), he also happened to hit me, shove me, and make racist remarks about my ex-boyfriend (who is half-Chinese.) Well, that's the story summarised as best as possible, anyway.
I thought I'd heard the last of it, that is, until I finally got to talk to my ex last night and told him about it. Quite understandably, he went completely ballistic. And that was before I told him about the racism. He told me to go and tell the police, because him hitting me was assault and he should be arrested for it... he was pretty annoyed I hadn't done anything about it, but in my defense I was vulnerable and confused at the time and didn't really have a clue how to go about anything.
So I rang up the police station, and spoke to an officer who filed an Incident Report. At first he told me that Dan could get a caution for assaulting me, but then when I told him about the racist comments about Mike, he told me that the issue was now a Racist Incident and thus the punishment could be a lot worse if Dan was eventually convicted. My ex said that the fact that the guy was racist, rather than the fact he'd hit me in broad daylight, was kinda sad. I'd say I have to agree with him on that.
So, tomorrow, I have to go and speak to a policeman. And it's gone 5AM and I haven't slept yet, so I'm going to be really, really tired by the time I get there. Greeeat.
I also have to see a doctor tomorrow. *sigh* Yay. My cold has gotten worse, and instead of being full of sniffles and sneezes I now have a nasty cough, another fever, chest pains, and blood in my mucus.
Lovely, eh? Not to mention, I've felt so weak and so tired I've been asleep for most of the day, and thus awake at really strange times - hence why I'm up at gone-five o' clock. >_>; I have to go and see a doctor about this, because it could be that my cold has developed into bronchitis or pneumonia, both of which, of course, are kinda serious if you leave them untreated. The chest pain is sort of irritating, too, because it's not gone away for several hours. It's come and gone before, but it seems to have returned with a vengence this time. 
Other than this, I'm feeling very down and depressed. Sorry, I don't mean to be so downbeat, it can't be very entertaining for you guys. I spoke to my ex after two weeks' break from him last night, and he didn't seem all that bothered to hear from me, really. >_<; Which was a little hurtful, even if he didn't mean it... I just hoped he would miss me, or at least think about me, you know? Apparently he has been very busy... but it still makes me very sad. I feel very unloved and alone at the moment. Moreso than I can remember ever being in my entire life. It's horrible.
I also heard from my ex that people have been sending him mean messages online. I couldn't get much out of him about the details as he didn't want people to get into any trouble with me (god, I must be very scary!
), so I didn't get any names, or any exact excerpts of what people have been sending him, but he did say that what people have been saying hasn't been very nice, and it appears to have really hurt his feelings. I love you guys to bits and I couldn't ask for better friends than a lot of you, but please do not fight my battles for me - especially not by being nasty to my ex-boyfriend. Despite what he has done, he isn't a bad person, neither do I hate him. I care about him a lot, and he is still my friend, and I'm upset to hear people have been abusive to him. I understand that you're trying to protect me, but what has been going on isn't helping me or my ex at all - and it's made me pretty unhappy. So please, if you know you have been doing this, and you have been involved... stop doing it. If you want to really help me out, try doing something to cheer me up, something constructive... rather than making my ex-boyfriend's life a living hell, because it fucks up my life too... ...okay? Remember, two wrongs don't make a right! 
| Update by Sali @ 05:55, Mon. July 17 2006 |
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