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The Smiths - This Charming Man-- Mariana Caplan
No current updates for the time being!
I'm glad to say I'm now over the worst of my flu. I still have a lingering tickly cough, but it's steadily going away, and I'm relieved to predict that I should be fine by Friday, which is when I am having my birthday party.
Speaking of the party, the arrangements of it are now fully under way and I am now looking forward to arriving on Friday night to set everything up! I've made a nice CD collection with a playlist that I've tried to make to suit everybody's tastes.
It's got some R 'n' B, some rock, some old stuff, and enough cheese to put a parmesan factory out of business! 
I mean, what is an 18th Birthday Party without a crudload of cheesy music? *snicker*My main hope now is that everything goes okay and that nothing goes wrong.
I had to go to the doctor's on Monday morning for my depression, which seems to be increasingly catching up with me. I've had to deal with it for a good few years now, and I've been avoiding treatment for it on the grounds that "it's just a stupid teenage thing." I'm beginning to learn that having people die horribly in front of you, having your self-esteem gradually worn down by various arseholes over the years, and getting your trust and love for someone totally thrown in your face, among other things, isn't something you "just grow out of," neither is it "down to hormones" (although I'm sure that they don't exactly help.) Even the people at college who know the true story (which I ain't going into) know I have it tougher than most people my age. Don't get me wrong, financially I'm more comfortable than the majority of the people I speak to; intellectually, the world is my oyster if I use my mind properly. There are just some circumstances I could never even begin to go into here that make my life that bit more complicated than your typical angst-ridden teen.
I've told a couple of close friends. They seem surprised, if anything. "You always seem so cheerful and upbeat, I had no idea," they say. Well, why would I say anything!? I don't want to bother them with it, I don't want to be seen as pathetic, and I don't want to think about it when I'm trying to have fun with them. So there. *lol*
It's now the half-term holiday in the UK, which means that us students get a week's break from our studies halfway through the first term ("semester" is the word in the US, I think.) Well. Supposedly we do.
I, on the other hand, am saddled with loads and loads of work from my subject tutors to do over the holidays, which is kinda crappy. No less than 12 tasks have to be done for next week, or my tutors will all be wanting my head on a spike. Mild exaggeration, perhaps, but I'll certainly be in some degree of trouble.I've made the decision to get as much of it over with as early as possible. Out of the 12 things I've had to do, I've done 5 of them over the past three days. I want to get the others done, too, so I can take time off for Friday and Saturday. I've got to somehow fit a social life in there somewhere too, as Adam has asked me to come over to his place tomorrow, and Alice and Mand want me to go into town with them for a good girlie chinwag in starbucks on Wednesday. Tight schedule, much!?
Well, I can't complain - it's better than doing absolutely nothing.
It's not all gloom and doom though! 
I've been shopping (yay), and have come up with some amazing purchases. Bought a pair of leopard-print pumps in a local shop in the sale, and a really nice striped cowl-neck sweater in dorothy perkins (which is fast becoming my regular haunt for buying clothes.) Me and Frankie went in there on Friday, and bought ourselves these gorgeous jeans which fitted us perfectly. She got a black pair, whilst I bought a blue pair. They're so comfortable and flattering, it's unbelievable. Thank Goddess for well-fitting jeans, however rare they may be. 
Oh, and one more thing: I got me a package in the mail on Thursday! 8D But, just because I'm a complete tease, I'm not going to tell you guys what was inside it or what I thought of it until my birthday comes around. Sorry, irene!
| Update by Sali @ 02:38, Tues. October 24 2006 |
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